today i buzzed around all day but felt that nothing got done. meals were made, toys were taken out and put away again. groceries were bought: pineapple, tomatoes, cucumber. things were ticked off to-do lists. preparations for Mimi's upcoming visit. hardware store, swim, negotiations about TV. concessions made. meals eaten, jackfruit cut, smoothie date at the local cafe. i thought to myself, i should be writing more. but i also thought hey, at least i'm writing.
and when i wrote out the whole day, even in point form and looked at it from up here, bird's eye view, as they say —
i thought of the herons we see daily. the vultures that fly overhead that you so often call eagles, and i don't correct you. because eagles are nobler, somehow.
i thought of the big picture.
life is like that, you know.
it's a bunch of tiny dots, that connect to make a reality that is so much more than we tend to give it credit for. its astonishing, really, that we don't spend most of our time in complete awe of the out-of-this-world beauty that is our every day moment-to-moment reality.
the fact that you even exist. that we are here, at all. that herons are taking flight and vultures are soaring overhead, pretending to be eagles. that wings can spread and wind can lift, that the moon controls the tides and the sun rises each morning to greet us.
finally, the sound of the waves crashing outside our little house was enough to inspire me begin this poem again.
today i buzzed around all day but felt that nothing got done. however, each moment was truly full of wonder and magic. and i was lucky enough to be able to spend a whole day loving my son. and we passed the time marveling at the world together.
mama musings 